Twenty Five for Twenty Six

I took a few days (if I’m being honest those days took me). One of them I was too tired from being out late and I couldn’t post. The other two I just got too overwhelmed and distracted and it just didn’t work out. But here I am ^_^ we are a few days out form Catherine wedding and it’s crazy! Work was all over the place yesterday and today and then before we know it BOOM Thursday will be here which is packing day! I’m so excited!!  Eating is going well. Soups are my new best friends. I also was reviewing and I need to revamp my goals here after the wedding.  Here’s to a grand week! 

Hello again.  Today was another rough day.  Woke up early, got yelled at by small humans that can’t actually speak in full sentences, worries about bills, couldn’t do my check in with Catherine because my life is a chaotic mess, passed empty on my gas tank, got a nail in my tire, got a new tire because that tire could be be fixed, ate a terrible dinner and then had my heart broken again by the Avengers.  There was some good in there too: met my step goal, got under the 160 mark, Peter helped with the tire replacement bill, laughed at the Avengers, and didn’t die. I really just want a day where everything goes smoothly. Without bad surprises. I’m please? 

This week was going all right and then today had to grace us with its presence. I tried to make the most it of today and it just didn’t happen. I saw one client, battled the return of my terrible headache, dealt with a grumpy ass boyfriend for five hours (once he ate dinner he was a little better but Jesus), struggled to find affordable renters insurance, and was graced with a verdict regarding my nonsense ticket. Said verdict is bullshit mind you. It was adjudication withheld (no points on my license, I guess I should be grateful) but the cost of my ticket goes up to like 350 once you factor in the money that was paid to take the case to court. I just can’t with today.  Some of that is my fault. And some if it is  or. Either way I am pissy about it. I just want to not have all of this going on all at once. If it was spread out in easier doses I wouldn’t be so angry about it. I hate today.

Today was such an odd day. I've never had a 330-930 shift and it didn't start out great.  I had a terrible headache for the first two hours and got dizzy. I ate a Reese's and had a soda. Neither of these I really wanted to do but I needed to try something. And that is what worked. The rest of the day went by easily and a co worker and I talked about Lion King 2, Simba's Pride. And now I am watching it before bed because why not?

Sorry if that title is too much for you dear reader. Life isn't always sunshine and rainbows. Some times it is messy. Today was an anger filled, headache (literally and figuratively). Everyone needed something from me (including the cat!) and I was just soooo cranky all day. I just wanted chocolate and a nap. Both of which did not happen. I got most of my stuff done and ate decently until dinner (We went to Moes...). I put in some time at the gym and then boyfriend and I watched Jennifer's Body.  Now I am watching National Treasure 2 and letting my face turn to stone using a charcoal mask. This is all in preparation for the wedding!! 12 MORE DAYS!!  AHHHHH!!! This week will be filled with good skin choices and possibly some make up purchases for my self and maybe a hair mask...  Can you tell I am tired? Again, not ever part of life is pretty. It is grainy and discolored at time; a mess that needs to tame its hair and detox its face. Good night. 

The weird sick feelings are back and it is making me angry and scared considering Catherine's wedding is in two weeks and I CANNOT miss it or be sick. It can't happen.  I didn't post yesterday and thought I should inform the interwebz of something that happened. I had a hamburger and fries. For the first time. In two months. And I still managed to go down .7lbs so that is nice.  Today was another day of pouring rain and dreariness (Is that a word???). I danced with Ericka and got a free lotion stick thing. I had soup for lunch and pigs in a blanket for dinner.  I will say, even though I am not meeting all of my goals as I would like to be, I am doing fairly well with my main one which is nice. I WANT TO GET ON A SCHEDULE THOUGH. I couldn't begin to explain why I fail so miserably at it. I just want to be able to be one of those people who can live out of a planner. Ugh. 

I was doing pretty well today. Took my medicine and was eating fruits and soup and working and getting charts and sessions done. And then the clients got brownies. Gooey, chocolate, fudge, cake brownies with wonderfully fluffy and creamy looking icing. I resisted. I walked away from them... Only to find myself at 7-Eleven 20 minutes later buying hostess cakes. Which were not great to be honest. They weren’t what I wanted but I didn’t want to stop my self. I did not care that I should not be eating them.  And then I had Boston market for dinner but it wasn’t good. Only the Mac n cheese was good. Ugh. Soup tomorrow.