Twenty Five for Twenty Six

I took a few days (if I’m being honest those days took me). One of them I was too tired from being out late and I couldn’t post. The other two I just got too overwhelmed and distracted and it just didn’t work out. But here I am ^_^ we are a few days out form Catherine wedding and it’s crazy! Work was all over the place yesterday and today and then before we know it BOOM Thursday will be here which is packing day! I’m so excited!!  Eating is going well. Soups are my new best friends. I also was reviewing and I need to revamp my goals here after the wedding.  Here’s to a grand week! 

Hello again.  Today was another rough day.  Woke up early, got yelled at by small humans that can’t actually speak in full sentences, worries about bills, couldn’t do my check in with Catherine because my life is a chaotic mess, passed empty on my gas tank, got a nail in my tire, got a new tire because that tire could be be fixed, ate a terrible dinner and then had my heart broken again by the Avengers.  There was some good in there too: met my step goal, got under the 160 mark, Peter helped with the tire replacement bill, laughed at the Avengers, and didn’t die. I really just want a day where everything goes smoothly. Without bad surprises. I’m please? 

This week was going all right and then today had to grace us with its presence. I tried to make the most it of today and it just didn’t happen. I saw one client, battled the return of my terrible headache, dealt with a grumpy ass boyfriend for five hours (once he ate dinner he was a little better but Jesus), struggled to find affordable renters insurance, and was graced with a verdict regarding my nonsense ticket. Said verdict is bullshit mind you. It was adjudication withheld (no points on my license, I guess I should be grateful) but the cost of my ticket goes up to like 350 once you factor in the money that was paid to take the case to court. I just can’t with today.  Some of that is my fault. And some if it is  or. Either way I am pissy about it. I just want to not have all of this going on all at once. If it was spread out in easier doses I wouldn’t be so angry about it. I hate today.

Today was such an odd day. I've never had a 330-930 shift and it didn't start out great.  I had a terrible headache for the first two hours and got dizzy. I ate a Reese's and had a soda. Neither of these I really wanted to do but I needed to try something. And that is what worked. The rest of the day went by easily and a co worker and I talked about Lion King 2, Simba's Pride. And now I am watching it before bed because why not?

Sorry if that title is too much for you dear reader. Life isn't always sunshine and rainbows. Some times it is messy. Today was an anger filled, headache (literally and figuratively). Everyone needed something from me (including the cat!) and I was just soooo cranky all day. I just wanted chocolate and a nap. Both of which did not happen. I got most of my stuff done and ate decently until dinner (We went to Moes...). I put in some time at the gym and then boyfriend and I watched Jennifer's Body.  Now I am watching National Treasure 2 and letting my face turn to stone using a charcoal mask. This is all in preparation for the wedding!! 12 MORE DAYS!!  AHHHHH!!! This week will be filled with good skin choices and possibly some make up purchases for my self and maybe a hair mask...  Can you tell I am tired? Again, not ever part of life is pretty. It is grainy and discolored at time; a mess that needs to tame its hair and detox its face. Good night. 

The weird sick feelings are back and it is making me angry and scared considering Catherine's wedding is in two weeks and I CANNOT miss it or be sick. It can't happen.  I didn't post yesterday and thought I should inform the interwebz of something that happened. I had a hamburger and fries. For the first time. In two months. And I still managed to go down .7lbs so that is nice.  Today was another day of pouring rain and dreariness (Is that a word???). I danced with Ericka and got a free lotion stick thing. I had soup for lunch and pigs in a blanket for dinner.  I will say, even though I am not meeting all of my goals as I would like to be, I am doing fairly well with my main one which is nice. I WANT TO GET ON A SCHEDULE THOUGH. I couldn't begin to explain why I fail so miserably at it. I just want to be able to be one of those people who can live out of a planner. Ugh. 

I was doing pretty well today. Took my medicine and was eating fruits and soup and working and getting charts and sessions done. And then the clients got brownies. Gooey, chocolate, fudge, cake brownies with wonderfully fluffy and creamy looking icing. I resisted. I walked away from them... Only to find myself at 7-Eleven 20 minutes later buying hostess cakes. Which were not great to be honest. They weren’t what I wanted but I didn’t want to stop my self. I did not care that I should not be eating them.  And then I had Boston market for dinner but it wasn’t good. Only the Mac n cheese was good. Ugh. Soup tomorrow. 

*read the title in the tune of bohemian rhapsody*  I have some weird sinus thing happening that had better be not an illness or I will flip out... Anyway it came I’m very suddenly my today while babysitting and caused me to cancel on the gym. While babysitting, the little guy actually liked me today rather than fearing for his life so that was a win. I also got to have soup today so another win. 

Today is one of those instances.  I had popcorn chicken, mac n cheese, and potato wedges today from Publix and it was hella good. I was semi good and didn't eat all of it (I gave it to Anella) and then for dinner I ate some strawberries, have a protein blend from the freezer, and Rice Krispie treats. I'm plateauing and I just want to get below 160. But I'm also starting to want all of the bad foods because they are delicious. Tomorrow I start back with shakes and who knows what for lunch. 

I went back to work today at Epcot. It rained and rained and rained AND I got some props from the German band that is playing there right now because they realized that I have a drumming background when they saw me following along with their set today. Food intake was better than in previous days and I got almost 10000 steps in. I am almost back weight wise to where I was prior to the weekend which is nice. I kept up with my app too. I have plans tomorrow to go to the gym and do a well dressed Wednesday but we will see if that happens seeing as I have like zero clean fancy clothes. 

Hello world. It is nice to be able to speak with you again.  Because of all of the festivities of this weekend, it was impossible to keep up with my noom app as well as the blog. So let's dive in to everything! Friday was a bad day but I made it Catherine's and was able to show her friend Marry everything for the following day which was her Bachelorette Party!! In the morning we went to lake park and she found a few of her friends and a their unicorn piñatas which had things that she needed to celebrate the rest of the day (sash, tattoos, ect). While we were out and about, there were people back at her house setting up decorations, reheating food that I had previously prepared and getting everything set up for her surprise. She was very excited once we got back to her house and she got to see everyone, including her sister in law and brother when he came to get her fiancé out of the house for a few hours!  We ate, played games and then got to take a nap before doing her makeup...

Today sucked. Nothing got done on time because the water to our building was turned off and that pushed everything back. And then I got stressed and couldn’t like handle myself and sat on the couch and wasted time and helped fix the toilet and then finally Packed the car. I finally got to Tampa at 710pm! Mess! 

I missed yesterday and Tuesday. I missed them in Noom too. I was just sooooo caught up in everything else that when I would get home I just had to immediately be unconscious.  I’ve been able to get back to 160 which is 10 pounds off. Now I just need to find a way to get some progress in the other goals...  In other news, I worked 4 days at Aspire this week in order to prepare for going to Tampa this weekend. I have been running around trying to get all of the stuff for Catherine’s events smoothed out as well so that’s been eating up some time. It will be so much fun though!! I made some stuff tonight and have a couple things to make tomorrow and then pack and hopefully gym and then go to Tampa and hide all the stuff from her until it is time. And they get married in two weeks after that! Crazy!!! 

I got into size eight pants a little better today which is kind of cool.  Saw a quiet place.  Not a horror really  but more like suspense drama with thrilling and scary elements. But good. Got more work done towards Catherine’s pre wedding festivities for this weekend as well!! 

Okay so we will know for sure if this setback is permanent or not tomorrow but I out 4 pounds back on following yesterday’s cheat eating. That’s crazy and disheartening. But it doesn’t mean give up. It means proceed with caution and knowledge. Repercussions. 

I did really bad today. I ate 800 calories worth of pizza, a snore, nachos and cheese sauce, some yellow rice, a PBandJ, and a soda. I mean come on now girl, what???  Now to be fair, I haven’t had pizza or nachos in a while. And I’ve been trying to do good! The app even tells us not to feel bad about little treats like this and those foods that we desperately want but need to have in small, un often increments.  I just didn’t do well today and I’m scared for weigh in tomorrow... In other news, I saw Skillet (and some other...interesting Christian Rock band) today with Matt. We sat sooooo far away which was fine visually. It the sound quality wasn’t great after the openers. Odd. Just odd. Very fun to hang out with Matt and try not to freeze to death together though. 

Today Peter and I visited his parents and watched Last Jedi to celebrate Star Wars Day. I fell asleep because I am a tired panda. However, below is my favorite seen:                     “Reach out with your feelings”

Today I magically had the day off! I worked on decorations for Catherine’s bachelorette party and supplies for her shower. I also did a weigh in at the gym for a program I am on. I lost 7 pounds by that scale. My scale says 9. Who knows. Either way it’s still progress!  I made odd food choices today though. Because I had the day off, I ended up sleeping in weirdly which set me behind on breakfast so I just didn’t eat it. And then I got so hungry I was dizzy and fading but I had to go to an appointment so I got one of the fast foods I am allowed to have which is Taco Bell. Dinner was chicken with lentil zucchini pasta and veggies. I need to find a better brand of steamed veggies... anyway food was odd today. My app talked about something that is soooo relevant:  I am a precious resource. There only so much of me. So today’s little recharge was nice. Peter and I went and saw Bad Samaritan which is a weird seemingly low budget thriller that just hit theaters. With MoviePass we ha...

I’m on this health journey thing, trying to make better choices about food, trying to go to the gym.  And I’m winning for the most part. In the last month I have done pretty good for someone who is as busy as I am. And it occurred to me, I haven’t had French fries in like a month. What? No french fries??  I’m dumbfounded my self. I’m also starving st the moment but I’ll have to wait until breakfast because I ate dinner already and brushed my teeth. I digress. So no french fries. Go me. I’m trying to make swaps for stuff and have more whole veggies and fruits it is just hard. One swap that I implemented today was banana chips and dried veggie chips. The problem is, they are all sweet and not in a cake like way. So sad. But small wins. 

First of the month updates!  I am down 8 pounds and have sustained that which is good. Noom is to thank. It is this little app that is a paid service for a few months depending on your plan. You get a Coach and a group and someone to help with your goals. And you get educated through the app about food choices ect. It helps to have a pocket accountability buddy.  I haven’t been great at using it the last couple of days though and I have 4 more pounds to lose by the 12 so I need to focus.  I’ve been washing my face and I think it is helping but now I have an uneven skin tone due to the sun at Disney. I’ll figure it out.  My other goals have fallen. Fast. Chores is doing okay, gym has declined to 2 times (if that), schedule has fallen behind, cleaning the car as fallen behind, putting effort into my appearance on various days has been iffy, I can’t remember some of my other ones? I completed my book goal last month which was great.  This month I want to incorporat...