Twenty Five for Twenty Six

Hello again, who ever (or is it whomever?) you are reading this. If you’ve been following along for a while, you can tell I’m struggling to write the correct things recently. I keep missing days or having throw away posts. It’s nothing for me to be ashamed of and I know that. This is my project. I did better this month than the last two which is an accomplishment.  But today I thought I’d walk you through one of what I call the “stuffs”; the things that keep me preoccupied. Recently I have been internally panicking about a new medication I was placed on. My stupid self looked up the side effects and now I’m just petrified. I’m Working hard to lose my 25 pounds (I could be working harder I will admit that) and to think that I could lose all my progress and it isn’t even my fault? It’s brought me to tears multiple times. Like sobbing, shaking tears. And then to think that I could become severely depressed, because of something that is supposed to help with something else, in my line ...

I’m going to talk about IW in this post so if you are trying to avoid spoilers, you have like two more paragraphs until they start.  Today was Avengers day but before the movie could be watched I went to work. I danced with my friend Erika to the German percussion band. And tried to make good food choices. We shall see at weigh in next week. I was able to pick up a check from another job so I have time money to deposit this coming Monday.  I also had to resend some of my Bachelorette emails as they didn’t get to where they were supposed to. But they have now and more supplies have been ordered! It’s a good day.  Spoilers Incoming I’m bringing the party to you.... that doesn’t look like a party... If you are like myself and identify as a  pretty big Avengers fan, you know this movie has been highly anticipated. This is it! This is what everything has been leading up to! And we have been avoiding blowing the secret like the plague. If you haven’t seen the movie and are...

Is officially my new favorite Tony Stark line ala Aveners Age of Ultron (which when you think about it was only like two weeks).  Today was okay. Work was fine, just me struggling to remember things (which is a new thing that keeps happening) and struggling with time management. Food wasn’t terrible today (wasn’t good either) and my Noom app taught me stuff I already knew such as me being an emotional eater AND a task eater.  I got to play some video games on Peter’s Xbox one. I’ve discovered I love this maze game called The Witness.  I finished my other audiobook and it honestly was the best on out of the whole series. It was a strong ending to the original saga; now to figure out if I want to burst that bubble by reading the spinoffs!  Peter and I watched Avengers two because we will be seeing Infnity War tomorrow. Avoiding spoilers like the plague over here. I know some stuff happens but I don’t know what exactly so it should still be an adventure tomorrow. 

Today wasn’t bad and it wasn’t amazing. It was right in the middle. I went to work, ate my “healthier” meals, listened to my audiobook, played some video games, stopped two fights, facilitated a group.  I worked out the morning too!  And people started to RSVP more Catherine’s wedding shower!! 

I made it back to my 7lb down mark which is exciting. Which then stressed me out because I’m about to start taking some medication that could reverse all of my hard work. Had a mini panic attack about that earlier. I did pretty good with food today other than my Reese’s Snack Mix. Met my step goal, listen to a book, worked on some MOH responsibility stuff for Catherine’s wedding.  And now I have a big goal for tomorrow.  This is a lofty goal considering my counseling job is all computers all day. But I will try!! Who else wants to? 

I’ve put like 1000 miles on my car driving everywhere! On Saturday I went to visit Catherine for the final make up test. We got to go to Sweet Tomatoes because it’s amazing and delicious. It was a great little day! Yesterday I worked and then blocked out the rest of the day apparently because I can’t remember... (I’m blocking it out on purpose bc I didn’t like my Scale number). Today was work and gym and healthy dinner and out let malls and now sleep.

Today was full of laughs which was great. Peter and I saw Blockers with his friend Tony and his girlfriend! I thought this movie was hilarious but I’ve also been up for a looonnngggg time.  Work was fun too, I got everything done and got Pollo Tropical!! My sister also texted me, for the first time ever in my 11 years of having a cell phone, how much she loves me! Which was super cool and fun.  My sister tells me she loves me all the time in person but I’ve never had it (that I can recall) like this:

I was on a roll! And then I chose not to post on Tuesday and then yesterday I just got home late. At some point this week, I had lost a total of 7 pounds. But that has gone back up. Yo-Yoing is normal. Just got to keep making good decisions... When you’re as busy as I am, those decisions can be hard. When do you find the time? I spoke with my goal specialist today and committed to three low calorie dense meals for the week. I should be able to do that. And not snack on terrible things. It’s a simple concept. Just have to do it. I’m in book 8! I’ve moved to audiobooks because time. It makes my car rides so much better!!  Tomorrow I have to make big decisions about food and will try to clean up my house. 

Today was pretty good! Work was easy and I got to move some stuff around in my office (surprise Anella!!). I got some good and bad news about clients but that is neither here nor there. Noom went well and I feel a little more comfortable within my group on there. Peter and I started our chicken and broccoli adventure. I went to the gym. We saw Rampage because MoviePass. I worked on some shower and bachelorette stuff for Catherine!!  It’s been a pretty chill for the most part and I’m grateful for that! Here’s to tomorrow. 

Work was rainy, wet, and long. But I survived. And the the lead singer of German band that has been hanging out at a EPCOT for the last three weeks gave me a hug and thanked me for all of my support while they’ve been there (read crazy groupie dancing during my shift).  It was nice though. I also met my Noom coach for my fitness app and worked on the menu for Catherine’s bachelorette!  Peter and I decided to start working new foods into our lives so that will also be helpful. 

Today was a long day for me between gym and work.  I have another very long day tomorrow and then I am done with long days for a while.  Catherine’s bachelorette is coming along, I lost another pound. Good things. But I feel like I’m falling apart st the joints. My ankles and feet and hips are just miserable. Ugh. 

Guys!! I finished my book goal for the year!!  I started reading this book on Tuesday because we were rained out at work. It’s call the Iron Fey series and there are ten books! I’ve finished two already because I have problems.  I ate a little better today, go to the gym, watered appropriately. It was a busy but a good day. 

And boyfriend wakes you up to talk you about pink polygons and greasy nose Eddy... (this was all just because he wanted to spend time with me but Jesus). I read more of my books, went to work, impressed some of the clients’ families, the three meals, had pie, organized some work stuff, did a chore, drank water, and now all I want to do is go to bed!  And boyfriend is narrating now about some cats talk show about space.  oh! I went to the doctor again, lab results will be next week. I think I lost a pound too! Goodnight. 

I missed yesterday.  In my defense, I ended up working from 930am-1155pm. I also got blood work drawn.  The down side to that was I had three donuts.  Today was rainy and miserable at work but! Erika and I got to dance to the German band at the same time so that was exciting!  I started my 6th book of the year and Peter and I went to see the Pacific Rim sequel.

Today was another very busy work day. I ended up walking and dancing about 8 miles through out the day which is a lot. My ankles and feet are dying. I also had to stopping eating at 8 pm because lab work is tomorrow so I’m starving but I’m sure that will show up on the scale during weigh in tomorrow. I’d love to be another 4 pounds down by May.  I managed to wash my face, do two chores (Peter did some too!! Go babe!!) eat not completely terribly, drink water, and more progress on the Bachelorette guest list! Busy busy busy 

I am so tired I feel floaty.  I tried to write this post once already and the app gave up and said no. Soo... I was at work for roughly 12 hours today and I’m so tired I want to die. I drank water and walked a ton. And then it rained.  Also, spoke with some attendees to Catherine’s Bachelorette. I’m excited for it! 

I would like to point out, even if the posts are technically late, I have been pretty good about posting something each day! So go me for that.  We went to see Tomb Raider because why not. It wasn’t terrible and had some really cool aspects. I’ve never played the game or seen the originals so I had no comparisons. Peter put it at between mediocre and average but he’s really tired to who knows what that means. Work was crazy this week and it was unrelenting. Also I’m experisorry being memory issues?  Others wins- maintaining at 4 lbs off, talking with Catherine’s mom about the wedding shower, sending out final invites for her Bachelorette, drank a good amount of water. 

We got our movie passes in the mail today so we took ourselves to see Ready Player One which was entertaining and cute. If you like pop culture, it’s worth the watch.  I went to the gym and babysat for the rest of the day. Nothing too exciting. Kayla started watching Stranger Things so that’s an exciting adventure I get to hear about from her up until Halloween Horor Nights begins! 

I’m sure I have stuff to write about like my car hitting 10000 miles and work and something else. But I’m tired so there’s that. 

I walked 17551 steps today between work, dancing at work, and then going to universal with Peter. I ended up finding my annual pass which was nice but I spent to much money on food today. My legs and hips and feet are killing me.  My car is up to 9994 miles on it. In five months. I drive way too much. Is that the right version of to/too? Hmmm.  Anyway, that’s about it. 

I had all these plans for today. So many things written down on a to do list for during work and after. I got all but one thing done on the during work list mostly because I had to. I’m not there on tomorrow and we have soooooo much going on that we are all running around like chickens with our heads cut off. I finally got home.  And then I got caught up with boyfriend and scheduling and getting dinner. And then I got distracted by a movie. And then I realized I lost my Universal Annual Pass and freaked out because losing things makes me feel like a failure.  I didn’t get the things on my list done. I didn’t eat completely great. My wins today were in tracking my food, trying to drink water, and washing my face. 

A new goal yesterday and a new move today to reach some of my goals! I signed up for Noom. I’m going to go through the free trial and see if I want to continue it so more on that in two weeks. I need multiple accountability sources because I’ve learned how to get complacent with my standard ones. I have also thought of a few new goals for April so that is exciting! I feel like if I can get some steady momentum built up, I can kick in to gear and start moving forward rather than sitting in limbo. I placed my self here and I need to choose a path. Just do it girl!  Also, spoke with a lady about extra hours ($$$) and spoke with Amanda, Brianna, and Kayla about going to see Panic! in August. I also need to speak with Matt about going to see Skillet.