Twenty Five for Twenty Six

New goal alert!!  Today Catherine and I worked on some of her wedding stuff. We looked st accessories for the big day, found some fun things, and practiced her makeup look. We also finalized some shower details which is very exciting!!  In the midst of me practicing applying her makeup, I recommended to her to make sure her face regimen was consistent for at least the full month prior to the big day. I have been thinking about this for myself as well! My skin is kind of bleh and I don’t even know why really. So goal nine is to make sure I’m cleansing my face everyday between now and the wedding in hopes to see some changes!! 

Hheeellloooooo, it’s me!  Today has been an interesting day. I missed yesterday because I was tired. And that tired carried into today. But I was able to start speaking with a traffic lawyer about that ridiculousness of a ticket. And then I cleaned parts of my house and did grocery shopping! Catherine is visiting tomorrow for some wedding preparation stuff and then I’m working all day on Easter. I finished another book (ghosts haunting trees, interesting concept) and decided on a new goal for the next few months!!  March was a better month. Not great, but better and I will take that. Let’s see how April goes. 

Today was an inbetween day to be honest. I found so holes in my ticket (literally not my car on the ticket omg) which is good but now I have to go forward with like court so that’s kinda intimidating. My food intake was not great but not awful. We had a staff meeting that was educational but boring because staff meetings and then my cat demanded attention when I got home. I’m worried she’s depressed and that we haven’t been playing with her enough... who knows. 

The title has nothing to do with the post but I thought it was funny.  Today sucked. Some asshole cop gave me a 300 ticket  (my first ever in my life mind you) stating  "you were behind me, and I was going 58, and tried to pass me, a cop, on the right hand side going 70 in a 55"  False sir! I was NEVER behind you and never moved into the right lane! I was in the center right hand lane and changing lanes using my blinker to get in to the center left hand (next to him as he was in the far left lane) and I was only going 62 which in my opinion is an acceptable *passing* speed!  It was after the fact that he then decided to get behind me, follow me for a like 1/4 of a mile and then pull me over and act like an asshole about it.  This is definitely a first world problem and probably a white people problem as well but regardless it doesn’t change the fact that this was just one more thing for my system to feel upset about. How are we going to afford that? Why is ...

If I want to lose the rest of the weight, I need to buckle down and actually adhere to some sort of consent meal prep/plan. I wasn’t awful today but I’m not sure it was exactly good either. I need to add more veggies and fruit consistently and less junk. I know all of this.  Also, today was spent trying to emotionally recover from my weekend because it wasn’t great. I’ll be okay but just lots to recover from today was all. 

I missed yesterday’s post completely. I passed out in my clothes with all the lights on at like 11pm. Woke up at like 3 am and just kind of stumbled around like a zombie to rectify that situation. Rough.  Today was a mixed bag. Checking on the animals I’m petting sitting was fine and work was alright just a ton of standing.  Everything was fine at home until boyfriend’s tires suddenly had to be replaced. I try not to talk about that facet of my life too much because that’s like taboo or something in society. So I’ll talk about how I struggled to handle his stress today. I struggled to handle all of the things that he was going through and it makes me feel very unsteady when that happens. Again, rough.  I sometimes get my girlfriend and counselor lines blurred which may or may not help at times, I really don’t know. But today was just a lot. And then an *NSYNC song played and here we are with a blog post. 

I finished my fourth book of the year “The Rosemary Spell” from which I took the title of today’s post. It isn’t a great book but it was entertaining for the most part. Learned a little bit of the conspiracy theories about Shakespeare so that’s good.  I also went to the gym and now I’m going bed. Peace. 

So everyday I make an entry, I do my tags first. Today has so many tags! I did a a lot today to warrant that. I went to a tea room that originally was schedule led for Catherine and I but scheduling ended up not allowing her to come up during the week so I had to go by myself. I decided to dress cute and rock some cowboy boots. The tea was yummy and relaxing. I went to the library on the way and got a book to read while I was there. Then transitioned to a doctors appointment because being healthy is important. Followed by laundry, bank errand, making a counseling appointment to deal with the stress in my life, being supportive for Peter, going to dinner with Anella, and now I’m puppy sitting!  So busy!!  But not in that draining way. It was good to have fun, self focused things happening. I love having time for myself :) 

Peter and I had an adventure to the dollar tree so that I can finally set up the chores checklist I’ve been meaning to make. He and I want to feel happy and comfortable in our apartment. And doing so requires chores which get away from us. Hopefully this will help a little!!  In other news, there was a severe thunderstorm today which canceled every other plan that I had!! 

One thing I’ve been particularly bad at has been my protein intake and general nutrition. I love simple carbs and sweet stuff. And I’m always hungry.  I was trying to make better choices and then vacay mode kicked in. I’m terrified to look at a scale.   So I’m back to trying to put proteins first and it is really hard. I got a some protein shake ingredients today so fingers crossed that will help!! 

Today was so tiring. I worked from 10:30am-9:30pm. My legs and feet and back are killing me and all I want to do is curl up in bed and cry myself to sleep.  But I remembered I made a commitment (for the billionth time) to do this. I shouldn’t be missing posts. I need to establish consistency. Same story, different day. But it made me post today! So that’s a tiny win.  I have not been eating well and I’ve been spending too much money. I feel like I’m tail spinning and I’m not sure how to make it stop.  I talked to Catherine today about some stuff and we are still working out kinks in some of her planning but soon we will have finalized, awesome events on the horizon ^_^ 

Yesterday was all over the place. I felt  in down but had clients to see and things to do. I ended up leaving work early to take care of everything and try to relax. It ended up being fine but this Wednesday will be even better.  Today I worked all day and luckily it went by pretty fast. Must be the luck of the Irish ^_^ I am experiencing some weird foot and leg pain though.  And my lips are chapped. But I got to see Brianna and Amanda and their parents while I was at work!! I also found a quote on one of my registers that I copied.  I liked it a lot and decided to take it with me. It’s a good motivator.  Tomorrow I check in with Catherine, need to make food somehow,  and work 11 hours so that will be super fun. 

I’ll explain all of it better tomorrow when I’m fully conscious

 Today was my nephews' first visit to the Universal Orlando Resort. I stuck the older one on The Mummy roller coaster without properly preparing him and he was not happy. The whole group shared a Simpson donut because why not. I had rice, chicken and bans for lunch and I walked 4.5 miles.  It was a good day and I wish everyday as like today. 

I made it nine days in a row before I just completed forgot to even try. And once that happens, it is hard to get back into the swing of things. Not even 48 hours later, my clients talked about that general topic in group. My clients teach me things all the time- patience, slang, coping skills, strength, determination, laziness, perseverance, quitting and so much more. They try me on so many things throughout week and sometimes I'm just spent by it and sometimes I'm motivated. It all depends on the types of clients we have at one time. But this group was like the universe talking to me through them. They got off topic and told a story about a basketball player (who is not in anyway affiliated with any of my clients) who refused to play on Sundays because it was his day to go to church and what not. Well the team made it to the playoffs and their game was on a Sunday. The player originally said "No way, Sorry guys. I don't play on Sundays." Eventually his team guil...

It was a mixed day of choices, emotions, situations, accomplishments, and failures. I was able to get some chores done which is a win but then some other stuff hurt other goals. Tomorrow we look at apartments. 

So I had every intention of completing this on time but I kind of passed out. We both did actually with all the lights on, me still in my gym clothes. Today was a big cheat day. I had McDonalds for the first time in a while (pretty sure it made me sick tbh) and then a cupcake and half a donut and popcorn and a protein bar. It was a mess. I did look into a possible apartment upgrade which could be nice but it will all depend on the budget. The gym session I went to nearly killed. I thought my ear was going to start bleeding it was so cold outside. But I completed it. And then watched "47 Meters Down."  I also looked into a nutritional program that I'm not quite sure I can afford right now but that could be interesting later on. We shall see. I am definitely paying for the cheat day. I feel sluggish and awful. No more of that madness for a while hopefully.

Too tired to types will update tomorrow.

Today was another good day despite being tired from standing at work.  I got to eat a goood brunch and then start the day. I revisited the Walking Dead, plates the sims and then headed off to work. Linner could have been better but it was yummy. Pretzel bread with cheese and ham and a strudel. No regrets!  I came home, snuggled with the cat, helped my sister plan some stuff st Universal and ran around the house with Peter. 

It wasn’t a bad day! It was busy for sure but not bad.  Morning was spent dealing with insurance for the c asked windsheild, finding out surprising news and then getting to work late. Work was crazy all in itself because client shenanigans...  Then I finally came home and made dinner which was some stuffed chicken thing and veggies. And Peter’s friend came over and hung out for about two hours just discussing all kinds of things.  In all of this it ended up being an inadvertent BossLadyMonday!! I literally only have B.B. cream and eyeliner on but everyone was just “Omg you glazed donut you” compliments and respect all day! Crazy! 

When I first moved into this apartments would years ago, Peter and I went out and got a fish. A small male Betta from Walmart. He was aquamarine and navy. We named him Blue (bc Jurassic world).  Today he died.  He had been struggling for a while and even though it had been two long years, I can’t help but think it might have been our fault? What if we had changed his water more often? Had more time to dedicate to his needs?  Another reason to make the time!  Food was okay and I got in around 12000 steps . 

Today I helped some coworkers have a Disney outing for a birthday. Hopefully they had a good day!  I brought boyfriend with me and we spent the day roaming around Magic Kingdom, holding hands, and trying to get on rides. It was a busy day for some reason but we were able to get some rides in with a good lunch and snuggles so it was good day. But!! My windshield magically got cracked and now I have to figure that out. That’s a tough think to end a theme park day with and I was not happy at all. We filed a claim and shall see what comes of it.  Work tomorrow! 

I’m honestly not sure if I have or have not used that title before...  Today started out kind of rough- sleep was spotty, late for work, could t hunk straight ect. I kept up with good food intake and variety though! And got 6300 steps in at a sedentary job. So that was good. I did some grocery shopping, vacuumed, watched a movie with Peter, annoyed my cat.  And cried about life for about an hour. Just sobbed. Sometimes life catches up with you- like life from when you were five- and you just have to acknowledge that it is on your tail and stop trying to outrun it. Embrace it and try to learn from it. Crying is a good way to start. It helps to let go of stuff in whatever way you can and if saline leaking from your eyeballs is the way then so be it!  I’m okay, just lots going on that doesn’t need to be and then a random reminder of how much I detest the idea of aging. Wonderful combination for “let’s think about that sad time when you were little” and then boom,  tears...

February was tough month for checking in. Between getting sick and applying for potential replacement positions if I decide to leave Disney, it has been difficult to keep up with everything. I have been maintaining the weight I dropped and trying to keep up with my goals. Some have been successful and some have not.  I started a new program st YouFit called the countdown to change. It is an extra set of group classes that are a little more intense than the others. That started today and I thought it appropriate to pick up where I left off on here. I want to keep up and sometimes I don’t. Life gets ahead of me. I need to slow down and take breaks. And I just haven’t been. But that’s okay because I’m picking it up again.