Sweeeetttttt Emmmoooottiioonnn

I’m honestly not sure if I have or have not used that title before...

Today started out kind of rough- sleep was spotty, late for work, could t hunk straight ect. I kept up with good food intake and variety though! And got 6300 steps in at a sedentary job. So that was good.

I did some grocery shopping, vacuumed, watched a movie with Peter, annoyed my cat.

And cried about life for about an hour. Just sobbed. Sometimes life catches up with you- like life from when you were five- and you just have to acknowledge that it is on your tail and stop trying to outrun it. Embrace it and try to learn from it. Crying is a good way to start. It helps to let go of stuff in whatever way you can and if saline leaking from your eyeballs is the way then so be it!

I’m okay, just lots going on that doesn’t need to be and then a random reminder of how much I detest the idea of aging. Wonderful combination for “let’s think about that sad time when you were little” and then boom, tears.

Emotions are a rollercoaster but they aren’t facts. Just temporary forks if exsistance.

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