Twenty Five for Twenty Six

Working in my case. For some people they are for breaks or vacation or chores by mine are for Working. I had a little bit of a break after work today and so I started watching the second season of GLOW. I am battling some sort of throat discomfort/sickness thing and I don’t care for it at all. 

The crusade of chart completion has been ended! We don’t know if they are all 100%  right but that part can be dealt with Monday. For now, it is over.  Peter and I went Bigfoot searching to celebrate and I cleaned around the house. 

*please sing the title in the style of “Shots”* Most people know that counseling has a ton of paperwork involved. It has more when you procrastinate hole punching all of said paper work and putting it neatly into a Manila folder... So today was (and the next two days will be) spent tidying up 33 charts. I’m down to 23 if my count is correct so a few more tomorrow and the last ones on Friday.  I hate charts. So much. It’s all just so tedious but this is part of the job description. It also helps when the program manger buys the staff pizza for staying late to get the charts done. 

If you don't know who Joanna is, please see above. She's a Goanna (reptilian creature who crawls on all fours and eat eggs and things) who is a minor character in "The Rescuers Down Under."  The reason she is featured in today's post is because the theme song for that Disney movie has been playing all day at work as part of the fountain show. I heard it mid afternoon and immediately recognized it. I even said to myself "Well now I have to watch The Rescuers Down Under." And here I am doing just that as we wind down for the night.  Water intake was good today and food was decent. So far breakfast has been the low calorie density meal and based on the scale, I have lost three more pounds. But we shall see. Tomorrow is supposed to be a WellDressedWednesday.

I am sitting on  my kitchen floor in tears with my cat because I lost something. It went missing and I can’t find it. This happens to me often. I’m always misplacing things or forgetting them somewhere. I used to have meltdowns like this every time I would lose something but I have gotten so much better as I have gotten older (mostly because I forget more things more often and being upset all the time is exhausting). And then moments like today happen where it is something important and I know I did the right thing and put it where it goes and it just disappears. Poof. Gone. And I tear my apartment and car to pieces looking for it to no avail.  And then I get upset about being forgetful (I didn’t used to be and suddenly one day I just was) and if that means I’m ending up like my Mom. I get all kinds of irrational when I lose things and no amount of positive self talk or REBT seems to stop it. And it sucks so much. I hate feeling crazy as I check the same places over and over ...

I’m already behind in most of my update goals. I’m trying to do better, really. This week was hard, and that’s a bad excuse.  Today was a WDW day. It was an easy shift, but my ankle sand feet and legs are dying after 6 hours of standing. It sucks.  Stress in general seems to be everywhere currently sheathed I want it to be there or not. I’m tying to avoid it and not cause anyone any as well but I’m not exactly doing the best.  We got new neighbors today and introduced ourselves because bonding. They seem really nice and they are into dragonball z and WoW. Hopefully they will not be like the other neighbors how have been listening to bass in their apartment for like three months. It’s really annoying and Peter gets caught in these loop about it and it just sucks.  I give up. 

I'm sorry I am two days late on this post. June has not been the month for blogging; I have just been SOO tired all the time. I passed out at 10pm on Wednesday night and then last night we got back really late from Jurassic World Fallen Kingom. But here I am, making it work. I said I was going to talk about food goals. And I will. But first let me remind whoever is reading this that I struggle around food. My impulse control goes out the window, down the street, and into the local bakery whenever I get near a food I thoroughly enjoy (read: desserts, bread, Mac and cheese, potatoes, burgers, Mexican food, Asian food, ice cream... You get the idea). That is why I joined Noom. It is an app that teaches you about your food and health decisions in an effort to help you get to your weight loss goals. It says I can be a healthier me in 16 weeks and I believe them. The problem is, I am like 11 week in now and I messed it up by checking out of it.  I was doing so well on my weight...

I’m sorry for missing yesterday. It is our third anniversary for my boyfriend and I and celebrating started yesterday. We went out and had dinner st Jimmy Buffett’s Margaritaville in Citywalk (how is a turkey burger 1400 calories WITHOUT FRIES????) and then did some stuff over at Islands of Adventure.  He and I are themepark people; I could spend all day at a theme park and be perfectly content. He and I met at Citywalk originally so it is fitting.  The night ended with him getting dehydrated but it was fun none the less.  Today was our actual anniversary so we headed to Disney’s parks to bum around. This was a slight mistake as it was very hot and he got dehydrated again. So a lot of our Magic Kingdom time was spent in their first aid office with him lying down drinking some Powerade. It’s a great story though so I’m not bothered.  We finished the night with Tower of Terror and Star Tours and now we are going to bed.  Water intake has been good! Food intake.......

WALL OF TEXT COMING AT YOU HERE I said I would do a post that went over all of my goals and how they are going to fit in to the rest of this project. Here we are. It is time to look those goals in the face. I am not ready in the slightly but here we go. Goal one- Work on losing 25 pounds               I really started working on this late but I have been working on it! So far I am down about 11 pounds and I think it is doable if I start following my nutritional stuff like I was for April and May to do it. Goal two- three times a week workout:nutrition goals later                 I have been struggling with this goal since before I even made it. I cannot seem to get to the gym three days a week even thought I pay for the damn service! I am just too busy and too tired and that makes me not want to go.                 ADJUSTMENT: Exercise at least two times a week thr...

By some miracle of the world, I was able to get this whole weekend off!! My sister asked if I could come babysit so that her and her husband could go to dinner with his boss. I'm always down to see my little nuggets so Peter and I decided to come down for the night. I was jumped on and cuddle with by my youngest nephew and the older one was a little more focused on his video games (he earned Battlefront 2 for conquering RipRideRocket at Universal). I love seeing them because it is easy. Even with one of them being developmentally delayed and needing constant supervision, this is an easy thing to do. I know this pattern and these people and what is expected of me and I love it.  Peter and I also got to run around the house in the dark playing laser tag with the older nephew because he has home laser tag and it was pretty nifty. We hid flags in different areas and had to find them! I stubbed my toes 100 times and that wasn't great but running around is always exciting. We had piz...

I have not fully recovered from all of my vacation eating and I have a sudden disinterest in all of the soups that I was in love with two weeks ago. I got back on to the bad stuff and it is so hard to get off of. Cake, bread, fast food ugh so good and yet so bad!  I tried to have low calorie dense meals this week and I got at least three in. The new goal regarding that is four meals. But that’s not really the point.  The point is I feel like I’m stuck. I want all the bad foods and I want to lose weight. I love veggies and fruits and all that Jazz... I just don’t have the time or the energy to make them for myself  and I love how easy all the junk food is. Example, I’ve been in love with ramen for the last week inexplicably. It’s frustrating is all. 

How is it the 13th of June already?? How did this happen??  It is so crazy for me to realize how much slower time goes when I am doing all of my daily things. June has flown by. Part of it was the wedding stuff and then the other part has to be a new section at Disney. These last few days have been hard. Work is fine... it’s home that’s hard. It keeping to my word for myself that is hard. My relationship is hard. Feeling motivated. Doing laundry. Getting out of bed.  Recently there has been an influx of “check on your strong friends” because of the celebrity suicides. I shared one of the posts. No one checked on me. I’m not mad about it and I’m not suicidal, I’m just stating a fact.   Catherine asked how I was doing in a group message a few days later so maybe that counts. Maybe I’m not considered the strong friend to a lot of people. Maybe I’m not important. Regardless, I’m struggling right now with things that I don’t even know how to vocalize.  Awareness is k...

And my best friend got married!!  So it has been a week since her mountain top wedding in North Carolina. It was beautiful and fun and she was a wonderful Bride and had an equally wonderful Groom. I would tell you all more about the wedding and the process and the driving (Jesus so much driving) but that really isn’t what was important. I got to stand next to my best friend, on a mountain top,  while she tied herself (literally) to her partner and then, like 8 hours later, I got to help her take the flowers out of her hair. It was wonderful.  It also gave me a great “reason” to eat like crap for the last week. I gained three pounds back because of my negligence and I have been struggling sooooooo mmuucccchhhh to use my Noom app. To top that off, I’ve been sick. I spent all day Monday dying in bed and then from there just slow recovery. Now time has come to get back on the horse and keep mining forward while everything is still salvageable. I started back at WDW today afte...