Twenty Five for Twenty Six

It is crazy to me that we are almost to November. Where did my year go? How has it been this long already? I know I haven't been as consistent as I had hoped to be with the project, these last few months especially. Upon reflection, (read: thinking to myself as I enter a fugue state flying down I4) I think part of the reason I am struggling so much with this project and in general is due to my lack of identity.  I know I show my self to be all these things but in reality, I still struggle to figure out who I am. I always have. Some of you may know me to be this bubbly, bright, positive, peppy, bouncy person and that is true... but there are so many other sides. I can be mean, very very mean, and strict, bossy, controlling, miserable, hateful. When that happens, people who know me as the former kind of freeze. They ask whats wrong and act cautiously. They don't know what to do with the new form that is in front of them. And then there's this other part that is pityin...