Twenty Five for Twenty Six

Today’s food intake was... hard to quantify. I’m noticing unfavorable increases on my weight chart and I know I need to change my food intake. The goal here is to get back to a reduced amount of calories and increase in physical exertion. I think I hit around 2000 calories today (guessing because there as a party) and I should be at 1200 ideally.  One of the interns is leaving (so sad) and we had a brunch celebration for her going away party. Bagels, donuts, cookies, strudel, breakfast burritos, fruit. So many carbs. I made an effort not to consume everything. And that was my big meal for the day so that was a small win as far as portion goes.  It the content... well. Not great. Peter and I later tried to go see Tag but the projector broke so we got a free ticket to any other movie. Peter chose Skyscraper immediately and that’s what we did. Now I am going to bed so that I can be back to work for a few hours by 7. 

I have not fully recovered from all of my vacation eating and I have a sudden disinterest in all of the soups that I was in love with two weeks ago. I got back on to the bad stuff and it is so hard to get off of. Cake, bread, fast food ugh so good and yet so bad!  I tried to have low calorie dense meals this week and I got at least three in. The new goal regarding that is four meals. But that’s not really the point.  The point is I feel like I’m stuck. I want all the bad foods and I want to lose weight. I love veggies and fruits and all that Jazz... I just don’t have the time or the energy to make them for myself  and I love how easy all the junk food is. Example, I’ve been in love with ramen for the last week inexplicably. It’s frustrating is all. 

Today was another very busy work day. I ended up walking and dancing about 8 miles through out the day which is a lot. My ankles and feet are dying. I also had to stopping eating at 8 pm because lab work is tomorrow so I’m starving but I’m sure that will show up on the scale during weigh in tomorrow. I’d love to be another 4 pounds down by May.  I managed to wash my face, do two chores (Peter did some too!! Go babe!!) eat not completely terribly, drink water, and more progress on the Bachelorette guest list! Busy busy busy 

Remember how I said I lost four pounds? Well it is all back. I am not making good food choices. Part of that is out of laziness, part is out of poorness, and the other part is weakness. I don't do well when I am hungry. But I hate and/or get sick from things that would help my hunger. I also happen to love sweets.  For this week, I am going to try and be more conscious of my food choices and time management. But that's a whole other topic. 

Today was measurements day with my personal trainer and I HATE doing it. I joined the gym in May last year and every time I get measured, I'm bigger. And every time I tell her the same thing "I need to just get here more and do better at eating." Every. Single. Time. But not today. Today I was down four pounds from my last measurements in November and I think two inches???? What?? Its a small win. It isn't noticeable visually. And it could have an other explanation. But it felt kinda cool to see the numbers go down. I'm hoping to have more of those sooner than later. Also! I finished the extra stories to the Splintered series so that makes three books so far this year. That's pretty cool too. All the progress.