Twenty Five for Twenty Six

It has been a rough two weeks, not gonna lie, but I'm alive. I had to take a break and I'm honestly not sure if that break is done? Today was hard. * HARD*  But I told myself "Blog. Get back into it or you won't at all." I wish I could sum up all of the time I have missed in December but I just can't. Nothing detrimental happened but so many little things going wrong plus work stress plus social stress plus working on goals. It just got to be too much. I will continue to struggle with things for a while is my guess and going into a New Year that is a little disheartening. It is tough to have all of this momentum and then watch it all just leave, mass exodus style. But I am working on it. And that's all I can ask for myself right now. I'm doing enough. I believe in my abilities. And me saying all of this is an act of self compassion which is today's mental health tip and is defined below along with the best website should you wish to kno...

And I really need to because I have missed, both accidentally and purposefully, the 18-20th. It's been a  tough week with everything that is going on in lead up to the holiday. Working, goals, social, working, goals, social. It just got to be too much and it was going to cause me stress to try to post than it was worth. I thought I lost another pound but now I don't remember what the number was last week so I will monitor a little more closely. Gym has not been good. My car desperately needs to be cleaned because I skipped last week. I haven't done chores yet this week. I'm behind on my be beautiful for fun days. It just kind of a train wreck as you can see.  I am hoping that I can start doing better as of today because my schedule just gets more hectic this whole weekend. Fingers crossed. My hope is I can look at all of these set backs as just set backs and not failure because then I'll give up and not want to do them anymore.

Apparently I was exhausted when I came home from work because by 11:30 PM on 12/16/17, I was unconscious. So here I am, writing, yesterdays posts like I've been doing. There was cookie contest yesterday at work which was delicious. I had too many of them though. I should not have let my self partake. So today will have to be filled with better food options. I have my lean cuisine pizza that I can have and I will look at see if there is a leaner food item at the cafeteria for dinner. Anella went out and got some frosting for the Jingle and Bells' adventures on Christmas with the clients. Cookies galore let me tell you! It's going to be great, I just have to remember the cookies aren't for me. ALSO! Catherine and I might have found another Maid of Honor dress since David's Bridal has really dumb online policies. I just need to go get measured! This does scare me a little bit. My standard dress size right now is a 10-12. We ordered a 10 in the last dress and even i...

Friday's are busy days but today was exceptionally busy. We are down staff members at work which means everyone has to do extra things. And then I'm generally bad a time management so that's not helpful. And then Anella and I had some elf supplies to get for things we are planning for Christmas! I'm going to be Jingle and she's going to be Bells and then we will be Jingle Bells together and get to spread Christmas cheer to all the clients! We have bells and skirts and hats and leggings and all the festive things! That follows seeing The Last Jedi with the boyfriend. It was so much better than Force Awakens but I still have a reservations. All the Leia feels though!! And Luke!! I don't really care about our new characters though #unpopularopinion. Go see it and see what you think for yourself.

Thursdays are supposed to be checkin day with Catherine and I am thinking about making them formal check in day on here as well. I am one pound towards my weight loss goal, I am consistently failing to make it to the gym three times a week, dressing up for me is going alright, the schedule thing is doing better, book reading is nice, and car cleanliness wavers from week to week. Chores however, are doing pretty well but that has only been in circuit for like... 12 days so we shall see. I made chicken tostadas from Blue Aprong and they were really yummy. I'm excited to have those for lunch tomorrow!! Also, I did some stuff towards Catherine's wedding which is awesome. I can't wait to really start planning all of that :)

So after a day of being hella productive and relaxing and getting some energy back... it was all taken away by one person because that person is a leech to all things that are good in life and should really just go away and not be near civilized people. But that is just me speaking from a place of resentment. In all reality, although nothing was done to work towards any goal today and work was streesssssfuuullllllll, it wasn't a bad day. I got to spend time with boothang at the mall and found cute Christmas stuff. MENTAL HEALTH TIP OF THE DAY:          Those who anger you, control you. Break free of others' toxicity by practicing mindfulness and being in control of your own reaction. Choose.

Goal seven is something I have been mulling over for a while and it kind of stumbled it's way into my lap today as I randomly had the day off. I decided to spend the first half of the day outside of my apartment which led to me on many adventures. I looked at apartments (found one I LOVE), did laundry, stuck to the basics of my schedule, made a return, dropped off the dry cleaning, did the dishes, bought the cat Christmas presents, gave and received support from a friend, watched a comedy show on Netflix for an hour, called about my hospital bills, paid my insurance premium, cooked dinner, went grocery shopping, exchanged one of the cat's presents for something else, and somewhere in the middle of all that I went to my local library and got a library card.  I've been wanting to get back into reading for a long time. The friend that I spoke with earlier said she had so many books to read once we graduated because she finally had time. While I don't necessarily have a ...