Twenty Five for Twenty Six

Working in my case. For some people they are for breaks or vacation or chores by mine are for Working. I had a little bit of a break after work today and so I started watching the second season of GLOW. I am battling some sort of throat discomfort/sickness thing and I don’t care for it at all. 

The crusade of chart completion has been ended! We don’t know if they are all 100%  right but that part can be dealt with Monday. For now, it is over.  Peter and I went Bigfoot searching to celebrate and I cleaned around the house. 

*please sing the title in the style of “Shots”* Most people know that counseling has a ton of paperwork involved. It has more when you procrastinate hole punching all of said paper work and putting it neatly into a Manila folder... So today was (and the next two days will be) spent tidying up 33 charts. I’m down to 23 if my count is correct so a few more tomorrow and the last ones on Friday.  I hate charts. So much. It’s all just so tedious but this is part of the job description. It also helps when the program manger buys the staff pizza for staying late to get the charts done. 

If you don't know who Joanna is, please see above. She's a Goanna (reptilian creature who crawls on all fours and eat eggs and things) who is a minor character in "The Rescuers Down Under."  The reason she is featured in today's post is because the theme song for that Disney movie has been playing all day at work as part of the fountain show. I heard it mid afternoon and immediately recognized it. I even said to myself "Well now I have to watch The Rescuers Down Under." And here I am doing just that as we wind down for the night.  Water intake was good today and food was decent. So far breakfast has been the low calorie density meal and based on the scale, I have lost three more pounds. But we shall see. Tomorrow is supposed to be a WellDressedWednesday.

I am sitting on  my kitchen floor in tears with my cat because I lost something. It went missing and I can’t find it. This happens to me often. I’m always misplacing things or forgetting them somewhere. I used to have meltdowns like this every time I would lose something but I have gotten so much better as I have gotten older (mostly because I forget more things more often and being upset all the time is exhausting). And then moments like today happen where it is something important and I know I did the right thing and put it where it goes and it just disappears. Poof. Gone. And I tear my apartment and car to pieces looking for it to no avail.  And then I get upset about being forgetful (I didn’t used to be and suddenly one day I just was) and if that means I’m ending up like my Mom. I get all kinds of irrational when I lose things and no amount of positive self talk or REBT seems to stop it. And it sucks so much. I hate feeling crazy as I check the same places over and over ...

I’m already behind in most of my update goals. I’m trying to do better, really. This week was hard, and that’s a bad excuse.  Today was a WDW day. It was an easy shift, but my ankle sand feet and legs are dying after 6 hours of standing. It sucks.  Stress in general seems to be everywhere currently sheathed I want it to be there or not. I’m tying to avoid it and not cause anyone any as well but I’m not exactly doing the best.  We got new neighbors today and introduced ourselves because bonding. They seem really nice and they are into dragonball z and WoW. Hopefully they will not be like the other neighbors how have been listening to bass in their apartment for like three months. It’s really annoying and Peter gets caught in these loop about it and it just sucks.  I give up. 

I'm sorry I am two days late on this post. June has not been the month for blogging; I have just been SOO tired all the time. I passed out at 10pm on Wednesday night and then last night we got back really late from Jurassic World Fallen Kingom. But here I am, making it work. I said I was going to talk about food goals. And I will. But first let me remind whoever is reading this that I struggle around food. My impulse control goes out the window, down the street, and into the local bakery whenever I get near a food I thoroughly enjoy (read: desserts, bread, Mac and cheese, potatoes, burgers, Mexican food, Asian food, ice cream... You get the idea). That is why I joined Noom. It is an app that teaches you about your food and health decisions in an effort to help you get to your weight loss goals. It says I can be a healthier me in 16 weeks and I believe them. The problem is, I am like 11 week in now and I messed it up by checking out of it.  I was doing so well on my weight...