Twenty Five for Twenty Six

Hello again, who ever (or is it whomever?) you are reading this. If you’ve been following along for a while, you can tell I’m struggling to write the correct things recently. I keep missing days or having throw away posts. It’s nothing for me to be ashamed of and I know that. This is my project. I did better this month than the last two which is an accomplishment.  But today I thought I’d walk you through one of what I call the “stuffs”; the things that keep me preoccupied. Recently I have been internally panicking about a new medication I was placed on. My stupid self looked up the side effects and now I’m just petrified. I’m Working hard to lose my 25 pounds (I could be working harder I will admit that) and to think that I could lose all my progress and it isn’t even my fault? It’s brought me to tears multiple times. Like sobbing, shaking tears. And then to think that I could become severely depressed, because of something that is supposed to help with something else, in my line ...

I’m going to talk about IW in this post so if you are trying to avoid spoilers, you have like two more paragraphs until they start.  Today was Avengers day but before the movie could be watched I went to work. I danced with my friend Erika to the German percussion band. And tried to make good food choices. We shall see at weigh in next week. I was able to pick up a check from another job so I have time money to deposit this coming Monday.  I also had to resend some of my Bachelorette emails as they didn’t get to where they were supposed to. But they have now and more supplies have been ordered! It’s a good day.  Spoilers Incoming I’m bringing the party to you.... that doesn’t look like a party... If you are like myself and identify as a  pretty big Avengers fan, you know this movie has been highly anticipated. This is it! This is what everything has been leading up to! And we have been avoiding blowing the secret like the plague. If you haven’t seen the movie and are...

Is officially my new favorite Tony Stark line ala Aveners Age of Ultron (which when you think about it was only like two weeks).  Today was okay. Work was fine, just me struggling to remember things (which is a new thing that keeps happening) and struggling with time management. Food wasn’t terrible today (wasn’t good either) and my Noom app taught me stuff I already knew such as me being an emotional eater AND a task eater.  I got to play some video games on Peter’s Xbox one. I’ve discovered I love this maze game called The Witness.  I finished my other audiobook and it honestly was the best on out of the whole series. It was a strong ending to the original saga; now to figure out if I want to burst that bubble by reading the spinoffs!  Peter and I watched Avengers two because we will be seeing Infnity War tomorrow. Avoiding spoilers like the plague over here. I know some stuff happens but I don’t know what exactly so it should still be an adventure tomorrow. 

Today wasn’t bad and it wasn’t amazing. It was right in the middle. I went to work, ate my “healthier” meals, listened to my audiobook, played some video games, stopped two fights, facilitated a group.  I worked out the morning too!  And people started to RSVP more Catherine’s wedding shower!! 

I made it back to my 7lb down mark which is exciting. Which then stressed me out because I’m about to start taking some medication that could reverse all of my hard work. Had a mini panic attack about that earlier. I did pretty good with food today other than my Reese’s Snack Mix. Met my step goal, listen to a book, worked on some MOH responsibility stuff for Catherine’s wedding.  And now I have a big goal for tomorrow.  This is a lofty goal considering my counseling job is all computers all day. But I will try!! Who else wants to? 

I’ve put like 1000 miles on my car driving everywhere! On Saturday I went to visit Catherine for the final make up test. We got to go to Sweet Tomatoes because it’s amazing and delicious. It was a great little day! Yesterday I worked and then blocked out the rest of the day apparently because I can’t remember... (I’m blocking it out on purpose bc I didn’t like my Scale number). Today was work and gym and healthy dinner and out let malls and now sleep.

Today was full of laughs which was great. Peter and I saw Blockers with his friend Tony and his girlfriend! I thought this movie was hilarious but I’ve also been up for a looonnngggg time.  Work was fun too, I got everything done and got Pollo Tropical!! My sister also texted me, for the first time ever in my 11 years of having a cell phone, how much she loves me! Which was super cool and fun.  My sister tells me she loves me all the time in person but I’ve never had it (that I can recall) like this: