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Chocolate Addiction




Today the realization of how bad my chocolate problem is getting hit me. I packed a chocolate tear to split between both meals at work. I ate lunch and then sat here for at least 15 minutes before making the mental decision to go stare st the vending machine.


Really that choice was to go get something sweet, something chocolaty and delicious. I devoured it in less than two minutes.  My addiction to chocolate (realistically sugary caffeine) has been getting steady worse since 2015. In these last two month, when I need to be working my hardest to meet my goals I have not been doing well fighting agaisnt chocolate. And I am not even adopted the mindset of “you get none!” I give myself the false security of “moderation.” Maybe I need to try none. Get some of the sugar or if the system. Withdraw, who knows!! But this makes me the tiniest bit sad that I can’t say no to myself. 
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